At the age of 32, after many years of inner work and self-inquiry, I had a lucid dream in which I experienced  awareness as more “awake” than I had ever experienced it in waking life. In this dream, I clearly saw that all objects and occurrences were spontaneous creations of consciousness, including my physical body. The consciousness that  woke up in the dream appeared to carry through into my waking life, because I began to see that this waking life is also a dream of the one consciousness interacting with itself in a vast array of forms. What followed was a gradual process of releasing beliefs and patterns based on separation and an ever-deepening integration into the truth of the unity and oneness of all life.

In the spirit of devotion and friendship, I love to share with others how accessible and possible it is to realize one’s true identity as pure consciousness,  the vast “the embrace of being.”  I think of myself as a midwife of the heart. I am here to witness and support you as you give birth to the Self within.

I invite you to visit my other blog: Womb of Light

“We are all meant to be mothers of God…for God is always needing to be born.”

Meister Eckhart

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 About Bethany’s Journey

“As a child, I was unusually spiritual. I felt intuitively that my life had a larger purpose that I needed to discover. I remember feeling a deep longing to give my life to God and become a nun. As a teenager, I fell in love with music and became a classically trained singer.  Singing was a way that I continued to feel connected to a higher power. In college, I became passionate about exploring eastern religions, yoga and meditation.

At the age of 19, I experienced a major turning point in my life.  I found myself unexpectedly pregnant. I knew that I was not ready to be a mother as my own life had just barely begun. I chose to have an abortion because I strongly felt that I could not give birth to another human being before I fully gave birth to myself. As I made that decision, I made a commitment to discover who I really was and what I wanted to do with my life. I plunged myself into therapy and personal growth in order to deeply examine the underlying beliefs and patterns that were causing suffering. Over about a decade, I processed and detoxed from childhood trauma while identifying core beliefs that had shaped my view of reality. During this time, I also obtained a masters degree in psychology, got married, worked in New York City as a writer, and later moved to western Massachusetts.

Through these years of deep inner work, I eventually came to a point where I discovered that the pure innocence that I thought had been extinguished due to painful life experiences had actually never been touched by any events in my life at all. I saw that this innocence I had been mourning and feeling separate from, was in fact the divinity and indestructible essence of all life and could never be separate from me. I saw that this innocence of Being was in fact my true identity.

Around the same time, at the age of 32, I had a lucid dream in which I experienced awareness more intensely than in waking life. After that dream, I began to see that this waking life is also a dream of consciousness. I started having what I called “union experiences” where I perceived everything as one cosmic body of the Divine. The experience of unity and intimacy with all life became more enduring and yet periodically punctuated by somatic and emotional releases. In other words, the deepest fears that had accumulated and remained buried in my psyche began to emerge and dissolve on their own. Over time, the unity of being has become the primary way I experience life.

I’ve found that it is often the moments when our most comfortable opinions and cherished beliefs become shattered by life circumstances, that we are closest to discovering the truth of our being. Everything that happens in our daily life is conspiring to wake us up to our true identity, which is the love and peace that are ever-present below the surface. All that we perceive as destruction and chaos is in service to the revelation of the indestructible wholeness that we already are.

Seeing this, we can live each moment fearlessly embracing what is.

As humans we are awakening from the illusion of separation to the reality of oneness. You are already on your way home. If you feel called to reach out to me, I am here to walk with you as you approach your destination. However, the destination is only the realization that you have never left your true home as Being. The feeling of distance and separation is an illusion, its only purpose being to create something for you to wake up out of. What many call “ego” or “ignorance”—is necessary for awakening. It is what makes awakening possible. It’s all part of the play!

“What is awake in me is awake in you and wants to meet itself anew.”

© Bethany Webster 2012